Healthcare, a right or a responsibility....

Ok Mister McCain, you explain this to me.

Life is a Right, Healthy Family is a Right, Family values is a Right.

Yet you say it's our responsibility and not our right to have health insurance.

How about the families that have been left high and dry and have no means of affording health insurance.

Without health insurance, how are they supposed to take advantage of this Right to a (healthy) life, Right to a healthy family? Isn't that a bit backwards you old fart?

English as a second Language

The ever expanding vocabulary used by the (young and hip) American public is an amazing thing. We were just having a conversation about that this morning. Webster's Dictionary has to come out with new versions more often than our Microsoft Windows Operating Software! All because of words casually thrown around by the cool and happenin' people of the MTV generation. A few years ago, if one would say "Google it" they might very likely get slapped by the person it was said to. Now, "to Google" is a Webster's Dictionary accepted verb. "Bling", or the fancier variation "Bling Bling" has now also been accepted as a real word, usually meaning some fancy sparkly accessory decorating a person's wrist, finger, neck and on some slightly rarer occasions, teeth. This, my friends, brings us to the word "grill". I am not completely sure if the word has officially been added to our dictionary yet. If not, I am sure it will be in the very near future. But I can definitely assure you that it is not to be confused with the word "rack"! (you know who you are.....) A "grill" is some extra "bling", or "bling bling" if you will, made of some shiny metal usually added to one's front teeth. The adding of gemstones is entirely optional. If you are trying to comment on someone's lovely new grill, but can't quite remember the word for it, don't make the embarrassing mistake of complimenting them on their "nice rack". Because that, in my opinion, would be just plain awkward...... Take it from a semi-foreigner, the English Language is a confusing thing.

"Faking It"

What kind of society have we become. A fake one obviously. I often wonder why I don't have many (female) friends. Just a few select super great ones.

I am well liked by most people. I am nice, friendly, and even have socially acceptable behaviour. I don't eat like a pig, I smell good, and tell funny jokes most of the time.

So, why would I not have tons of "girlfriends" who are clammering to hang out with me? Well, because I have obviously not learned how to properly fake excitement about bullshit. I have obviously not learned how to properly pretend to care about status symbols like jewelry, diamonds, and rich men.

Plus there's the fact that I have a life outside my baby boy, have no husband to run home to and take care of, and say what I mean and mean what I say.

Why is it that men don't usually behave that way? I have never unexpectedly run into a male friend, who then starts squeeling about how he has not seen me in forever and we MUST get together for lunch slash dinner slash whatever, and he would have called me if he only - insert excuse here -. This is unique to women only, in my experience. It's so fake. I hate fake. I hate people who pretend to care, but when it comes down to it, they are definitely not available at any cost, especially if it cuts into the time they had allotted to shop, bitch, gossip or wash their hair. That's not friendship. Not in my book. And if that does fit the definition of friendship, I don't want it.

Oh I know, I sound all bitter and pissed off. I am really not. I am quite content and happy. I have just finally gotten to be so comfortable with who I am as a female, a woman, a girl, that I am not willing to put on my fake face to fit in with "the girls". I think my fake face is broken anyway. That, or I have never learned how to properly use it.

And finally, to all of the guys that are single because they can't figure what women want.... Join the club honey. I don't think women know what women want.

"It's her soul lighting up the clouds" (June 27, 2007)

Wednesday, June 27, 2007


Why. Why can you not see that happiness does not come from a relationship.
Why can you not see that the hunger and desperation for closeness with a man can cloud your judgement?
Why can you not see that when your judgement has been compromised you and your loved ones are no longer safe?
Stop letting them kill you, letting them drain your life away like old dishwater!
Stop letting them take over your mind, your spirit, your body, your soul! Stop letting them take your peace! Stop letting them determine your selfworth!
Stop it!
No more. No more dying.

in loving memory of Kesha.... i'll miss you.

Finally...

Yes it's true....I finally feel like I am slowly returning to my old bubbly self again. I don't know what mega bug I was battling, but it had taken my body hostage, starting with my sinuses. I had no idea I had inhaled a half a bag of gummy bears into my head 3 weeks ago. But apparently that is where they have been hiding, and having a party every other night. It felt like they were doing little gummy bear construction in there to take up permanent residence. But no more. I put a stop to it, and finally killed them all. After being delerious with fever and pain for over two months, I took control.

Nice to have my body (and mind) back.

Some Random Crap; Useless information about me....

1. I hate wearing pants when I am at home; I take them off as soon as I walk through the door.

2. When I get sleepy or anxious, I play with my ears uncontrollably.

3. The tips of both my middle fingers are crooked.

4. I am extremely limber and flexible, have always been.

5. I have had 13 surgeries so far, but am remarkably healthy despite that.

6. I had a HUGE crush on Bo Duke when I was growing up. (ok, maybe I still do)

7. I don't like noise and due to what seems to be A.D.D. cannot concentrate with too much of it going on.

8. I can sing

9. I hate dancing

10. I can't physically puke

After Careful Consideration...........

I have to tell you a sad fact. I am completely disillusioned with so called "believers", "saved people" as they call themselves. I have lost respect for most, and at this point feel I will NEVER set foot in a church or christian organization again. Most of them disgust me and though I still consider myself a Christian, would not associate with most self professed christians. I have never met such small minded, judgemental "clicky" people, who act differently behind closed doors than they do on the outside or "in the world" as they call it. People who supposedly hold themselves to the "highest standard" but yet display such terrible judgement, and lack of integrity.
To this date, the majority of people that consider themselves part of that group, do not consider people like me equal, either because I am brown, single (divorced single mom) or outspoken, and did not grow up in a Christian home with a mommie and a daddy that taught me about all the church going habits and how to use "christian speak".
I just have found "non christians" so far to 1. have more integrity 2. have a more stable mental state and 3. to be more genuinely caring.
Sad but true.

Anyway, I still love..... I am still me.... I still am honest and honerable. But this is what I have seen and experienced and I am done with it.

Adios.